Friday, February 29, 2008
aaiiiizzzz..
really problmatic nah...
so many stuff to do...
nvr even hav time to jot down my feelings...
aiyoyo...
basically i'm gng to quit 2 wks later from now...
which means 17 mar will be my last day of work...
finally nah...
it's damn tiring...
1st time i got a part-time with so much work load...
and still hav 2 face some stupid adult who cant even do a teenage work..
35 already still so stupid...still think u're e best...
c'mon, u do things so slow, do wrongly, lazy, hao lian...
wad else are u??
1 day dunu go toilet how many times...relax relax meh...
boss cannot relax,how can u??
things we're not interested, don tell us..
don flaunt ur idiot desktop,
don flaunt ur crazy results of 'o' & 'A' levels,
all these i don need 2 noe,
don wanna noe
and not interested to noe lah...
get lost man!
wad eva nah...
this type of ppl, not worth my time 2 be irritated abt...
woooooo hoooooooosss~
wooosssaahhhh~
the worst thing came...
my piano, haven prac,
flute solo, haven prac,
theory,nvr do properly,
gosh...wad am i doing recently??
seriously i tink i shld gif up some things..
jus tt i can bare to...
she bu de norh...
but cuz tt wasn't my main aim...
my initial thinking of learning that was 2 be all rounded in music...
at least i noe some of other kinds of music oso, not only band music...
i don wanna continue...
i don really feel happy there...
thou i used to feel happy...hahhahs.
but i cant find tt happy part whn i'm there, not anymore now...
so i've decided to quit after first few performance...see situation...
so currently, silly silly continue 1st bah...
i need confidence for grade 8...
cheong arZ!
i believe i can do it...
as long as i believe and prac hard=)
jia you tgt wid flute bah!!!
wooooossahhh...
done!
buai =.=
11:51 PM
Thursday, February 21, 2008
hmmm...i'm wondering shld i quit my job anot...
my time too squeezy already...
i need 2 breathe...
by right i work till 10 april, but i requested 31 mar, but now tinking of the workload everyday...
i'm tired...
exhausted...
zombied...
i'm late 4 work everyday..
don wanna wake up...
all e invoices, po.s, bla bla bla...
1 thing mess up, the whole thing mess up...and i will sae "i win lottery liao..."
hais...
or shld i quit abt 21 mar, so i can get my pay faster?
hao bah,go slp le...
tmr sure late...haiz...
12:44 AM
Monday, February 18, 2008
i've jus re-recorded super no.1, pls do gif comments if u hear it=)
haiyo...later work again...monday sure got alot of stuff 2 do le...
after photocopying those invoices, i bet nancy is gng 2 ask me 2 write them on our invoice book...
-.-
but lucky i still hav time 2 relax..hahhas...
wonder wads 4 lunch later...
my lunch is free de wor...kitchen cook 4 the hotel workers...
hahhahs...
no idea wad i'm talking about???
i'm working in st Regis hotel as temp data entry, but sometimes oso do purchasing officer work...
i tink i'm suppose 2 b in HR de la...
but purchasing dept need ppl thn transfer me over...
sobs...
the only gd thing is, in purchasing dept, every1 will noe u...every chef will noe u and need u=) hahhas..
chef kit, chef fredrick, chef edward, chef...bla bla bla...
hahhahs
recently i feel restricted nah...
dad is checking my every move...
hais...
so i hav 2 lie low...
4get it la...after i start skul, sure no prob again de la...
he cant sae anything oso...
i've decided...
my aim...
Royal Academy of Music, uk, london!!!
here i come!
its undergraduate studies for woodwind i've chosen...
may need a related or secondary study, which is either piccolo or piano...
guess it shld b piano bah...
anyways, will consider again de la...
go slp le...
cha neh!
1:01 AM
Monday, February 11, 2008
i really have to say this out..
nt tt i wanna inform only 6 hrs b4...
but its tt i had a family problem few hrs b4...
tts e real reason i hav 2 4get about coming...
i slp at 3am and woke up at 8am...jus b'cuz i feel guilty 2 treat u all this way...
but do u wish every1 to know that i hav a family prob and come asking me about wad happen??
thn if tts e case, i would really leave..
it shouldn't b a place where stress exist..
it's suppose 4 me 2 feel more relax..
even thou it's true tt i can't commit, so wad?
did any1 even appreciate wad we did, or even having e whole nite cracking ur brains jus 2 do finish wad u're told 2?
i said i had sth on at home tt morning, cuz i noe 家丑不可外洋。
4get it..
i'm tired for e day...
1st day of work, OT for 1 hr 15 mins...
tired...
my brains are tired...
i jus hope there's some understanding on e matter, and not jus comment based on wad u noe..
if not, wad is there 2 unite about, whn there's no understanding??
10:36 PM
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
i really dunu wad 2 do...there's nth i can do 2 help except 2 remind about the tri love..
yes, ppl can giv me loads of advices of how 2 handle it, in order to minimize hurt...
but it's not for me 2 decide how long it's gng 2 go...
every relationship is a risk...
you will nvr noe how it will go, or how it will end..
you can only choose to believe in yourself and him, or choose to slack the relationship away...
i choose to believe....
even thou ppl ask me 2 tink properly, don sink inside too deep...
but if i don sink in deep, how would i noe/prove myself i really love that person?
wad is there to tink properly??
if love can be thought properly, then it isn't love, rite?
i noe 长痛不如短痛..
but i really can't control whn it will stop...
actually, to be honest, 我满辛苦的...
is that i hav 2 face ppl's comments abt it...
i noe it's care and concern from frens, i really appreciate it...
but sometimes you jus want a listening ear,period.
i really don wanna hurt her...
but wad can i do???
wad i'm doing now is already hurting her...
is just that she's in e dark...
i really can't imagine e hurt she will get..
and she will have tis thinking that her outcome is ruin b'cuz of me...my existence..
but but but....
if don end it fast then, it will be more troublesome later on...
if you don like her le or love her, then wad is there 2 stay on about???
i noe i'm being bad by saying these...
and i've said it before to someone else, which i already totally get over already..
that's y...
我知道这样不好
也知道你的爱只能那么少
我只有不停的要要到你想逃
泪湿的枕头晒干就好
眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹
以为在你身后
是我一辈子的骄傲
原来你什么都不想要
我不要你的呵护， 你的玫瑰
只要你好好久久爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好，贪心也好
那个女人对爱不自私，不奢望
我不要你的承诺不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好，贪心也好
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